2014年11月24日 星期一

Couchsurfing as a therapy?



This is the first time that I would say that I failed the couchsurfing. It was really frustrating that I've got this "criminal record" in Gothenburg, my favorite city in Sweden.

It's obvious that I did not realize that I was really really devoured by my negativity and emotions triggered by the failure to get in contact with the professors. And of course, the vague, confusing future ahead also  played its part. I believe I could hide these shits very well if I met someone who had a lot of things in common, especially the social issues. If not, then I just showed my true colors.

But my biggest problem was that I took it for granted that everyone would be willing to put on all my shits. I've got this habit when I surfed at London. There I met several friends who were so supportive and always would love to listen to me. It was so stunning that one could meet people from the other parts of the planet could understand the feelings. So after this, I think I want to get the copies from all the couchsurfers. But it's just not people's duty to do that, not to mention that I need to conquer all the things  by myself.

Anyway, I hope I learn something from this and will make the next couch better. 

2014年7月7日 星期一

Burger King Proud Whopper







"We are all the same inside."



But we are still different outside. By different I am referring to not the appearances but the power on the basis of race, class, gender, resources, whatever that can be utilized to deal with the risk. By the way, if sexual orientation was replaced with the attributes above, this footage would still make sense. 



The Whopper is really delightful. And the footage is stunning. But the whole world is still gloomy ahead of us. Because people always tend to find the differences but not the sameness that makes connection.

2014年4月28日 星期一

The fascist mind in civil society

Then you see that domination exists even in the thing you have faith in. You start sensing totality, absolutism and flavor of magical thinking. You start capturing how both obedience and intolerance of dissent loom large the way one easily gets terrified. Violence is followed by denials while sacrifice is taken for granted. Eventually you realize the good old days have far gone. You either seek excessive power to reproduce the game rules or leave the once promised land for good. And you know you will, no doubt, choose the latter.

I will always be the on the other side of fascism. If the social actors who dedicate themselves to the rooted democracy ignore or even deny any signs / tendencies of fascism, they will confront with my withdraw and deepest hostility. 

I'd had faith in you, my land. Farewell. 


2014年4月23日 星期三

矛盾

經過今天短暫的談話,我反而更加沮喪困惑。

我選擇不參與審議討論,並不代表我就是選擇坐以待斃。我只是認為,反服貿如果要反得徹底,那就絕對不只是反黑箱/獨裁/中國而已,還要挑戰現行的經濟生產模式(以及伴隨而來的人際關係)。換句話說,反黑箱就是反目前的生活方式。但是,我知道我做不到。我只知道,因懂得規則而擁有社會與文化資本的自己,只能矛盾又悲哀地在可以忍受(或視而不見)的範圍內,對抗新自由主義的浪潮。也因此,在摸出自己的底線之前,我絕對不會抱持樂觀正向的態度去參加任何在我看來處處是新自由主義影子的審議民主。也許我們在某些時候,太過在意民主"決策"與法制"架構",進而使我們過於專注在塑造所謂的"公民",而就在這樣的過程當中,我們不僅可能忽略了這些審議討論背後所被忽略的、也該獲得重視的資本累積、分配不均以及相應的社會結構,更可能一個不小心就成了讓新自由主義政府運作得更柔軟(且更合法)的幫兇。

聽起來超級矛盾,但聰明智識有限的我,目前也想不出任何答案了。